this is one of my favorite seasons. this is one of my most favorite images of fall. charlie brown vs lucy & the football. this is also how i felt last week...
i saw the football.
i visualized my approach.
i started to sprint.
i aimed!
i kicked!
and i missed it.....
i like to plan. i really enjoy it. i had planned to go to a structural integration school in miami and be awesome at structural integration and save the world. my plan was in place. little things started to happen, but i was so focused on my goal that i missed the little whispers.... a warning note from a family member, the massive financial risk, my body was literally hurting from stress, and i was having terrible dreams. i just really wanted this training. i wasn't listening. it was chaos.
the stress of the sprinting, aiming, and kicking was taking its toll - and nothing was moving forward. at all. then a few wise friends spoke, and i finally listened. this is what they said...
"God does not speak in chaos. He speaks in peace."
"follow the peace."
immediately after those words, my verse of the day was about how God does not speak in the storm, or in the wind, but in a still, small voice. amazing that you can know.
the relief of letting go was almost more than i could handle. i'm not afraid of a struggle. struggles are good. they make you stronger; the right answer is made clearer. so i am not deterred from my goal. i know there is a link to be made between counseling & bodywork. i know i want continued training in structural integration, but it's going to be a different path than i thought. and much better than anything i could hope or dream.